Posted in Personal, Social, politics on Monday, November 19, 2007 | 6 Comments »
My friends threw a great birthday party for me yesterday. The food, the cake, and the gifts were awesome. We drank so much that had to stay the night at my friend’s home.
I’m happy that I had my birthday yesterday, instead of today. Because I woke up today and saw the news about another [...]
Posted in Personal on Tuesday, September 25, 2007 | 2 Comments »
This is my last night at Boulder, Colorado. I came here on Friday to visit my aunts. One of them lives here and the other two are visiting her from Switzerland and Iran. This was a chance for me to visit these three amazing women after three years, get some energy and support, and remember [...]
I’m at peace with myself and my environment. I went on a date that was not a date. It was so peaceful, so ordinary, so real. I feel alive. I’m a bit confused, but alive.
Posted in Personal, ladysun.net on Thursday, September 6, 2007 | 10 Comments »
Whenever any of my ex boyfriends would tell me they loved me, I wouldn’t believe them and would tell them that they are lying. That rejection/denial has been usually interpreted as my lack of self-confidence or low self-esteem. But that wasn’t really the case. I know I’m lovable. But the problem is that the word [...]
Something broke last night…
Posted in Personal on Monday, September 3, 2007 | Comments Off
I can’t sleep again. I know why. I can’t sleep in silence, and I am all surrounded by silence now. Even the music doesn’t help. I feel really miserable, because I’ve become dependent on someone who can break the silence by holding me. I’m totally dependent, and now that person is gone. I go nuts [...]
Posted in Personal on Sunday, September 2, 2007 | Comments Off
Gosh, it was just last night that I felt so good to write. It didn’t last even 24 hours. I’m confused again, and the pain is starting to hit back. I’m frustrated. Am I getting bipolar?
Posted in Personal on Sunday, September 2, 2007 | Comments Off
*Listen to the Falling Rain by Jose Feliciano
The first week that I was back was like hell. I was crying on and on. It was unbearable, but, ironically, like many other unbearable moments in the past, I bore with the unbearable. I’m really good at surviving. I went out with my friends almost everyday. [...]
Posted in Personal on Thursday, August 23, 2007 | Comments Off
I don’t know what to do. Whatever I do turns out to be wrong. I’m angry, I’m frustrated, and more than anything, I miss what I had, at least just a few months ago. What happened to all that? Where did you go? How did you end up shouting at me so senselessly? What happened [...]
Posted in Personal on Thursday, August 23, 2007 | 2 Comments »
(Youtube is under maintenance now. Double click to see the video on Youtube website.)
How I needed you
How I grieve now you’re gone
In my dreams I see you
I awake so alone
I know you didn’t want to leave
Your heart yearned to stay
But the strength I always loved in you
Finally gave way
Somehow I knew you would leave me [...]
